Last week Saturday, I remembered what it felt like to be me. I remembered what it felt like to be funny, to be slightly nervous but mostly excited, to feel giddy about what was about to happen. It was like driving to Kualoa Ranch before the very first Big Mele. It was like seeing my first concert, Jane's Addiction, with all of my besties.
It was the kind of moment where I felt like I was being me. Authentically, freely me, without judgement or concern for being judged.
And Meredith and me? We were SO FUNNY! We were HILARIOUS! We were a party of two and I was happy for it. I was content with it. I didn't wish to be a part of a larger group, I didn't wish for a drink in my hand, I didn't wish for anything to be any different than what it was. I was SO PLEASED to be exactly where I was, doing what I was doing.
UNINHIBITED!
That's what I'm going for here. I felt so uninhibited that night. Not take-off-my-shirt-and-swing-it-around uninhibited. More like free-to-be-me uninhibited. Free-to-be-dorky-me uninhibited. Not-afraid-to-be-excited-about-choral-singing-with-strangers uninhibited. Laughing-at-and-making-lame-jokes uninhibited. Sing-off-key-at-the-top-of-my-lungs-like-I'm-good-at-this uninhibited.
And what could be better than that?
I mean, other than fucking world peace, right? What could possibly be better than that?
Footnote:
The host and creator of Pub Choir, Astrid Jorgensen is, herself, HILARIOUS. She wrangled all of us wild chickens into learning to sing Cher's "Believe" in three-part harmony in just about two hours. It felt like SUCH a me thing that I didn't even know existed and am so thrilled to have been invited to. It is a powerful thing to be so authentically uninhibited doing something so in line with who you are, and with someone with whom you feel so free and accepted.
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